In the past, I would try to "ride the wave" of despair and let what ever was bothering me leave. It never helped. I felt like the "wave" was never fun and my mind would continue to travel a downward spiral. Sometimes those worries would come like a ton of bricks, weighting me down.
Have you ever felt that way? Have you ever been so troubled in your heart that it felt like there was no way out? No way to rise above?
Thankfully, there is always the Word. Paul wrote in his letter to the Philippian church, "And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (4:7)
So that night I got up. I was tired of wrestling with the situation and I needed to hear from God. I needed to pray to the Father.
At first I thought that I should just open the Bible and read where ever "the Spirit led" type of thing. Then I thought, "No, Isaiah. I should start there." The truth was, the Spirit led me to what I really needed. There was a random piece of paper stuck at Psalm 120. So that is where I started.
Psalm 120 starts "In my distress I called to the Lord, and he answered me..."
This was for me, for I was filled with distress. "Oh God, you are giving me the words to say."
I continued. Psalm 121, "I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, he who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper..."
Like a balm to my soul. I continued to pray. I continued to read.
Psalm 122. 123. 124. 125 and 126.
As I was reading I keep "hearing" God speak to me. He kept "saying" that He had all things taken care of. I was worrying for nothing.
My heart was calming. My mind was changing. God was at work.
At the end of Psalm 126, the verse states, "He who goes out weeping, bearing the seed for sowing, shall come home with shouts of joy, bring his sheaves with him."
That night, I rested. I was able to go to bed and sleep. His peace destroyed the anxiety that my heart was wrestling with.
Have you ever felt like God was speaking to you? What verses has He used in your life?